So, I am back in Denver and had a great trip with some revelations, good and bad. Sometimes its necessary to take a break and do a self check to see if your going nutso or if you are on the right track. In my case I think both are true. I did go a little nutso, evidenced by my telling you all of this out loud and on-line. Scary stuff, but I’m not going to stop. I met an interesting guy this morning at a hot springs place I stayed last night. I needed a bed and this place has great water apparently with lots of lithium in it as well as other trace minerals. Its called Joyful Journeys. Anyway he had worked in politics and was a type “A” high achiever and had walked away from it. He does some state level stuff now but not the high pressure stuff that was eating him alive.
At one point he brought up a concept that uses a surfing term. When surfers paddle out past the breakers to wait for the next set of waves they just kind of tread water while they wait. The are not going out further and not coming in either but as the waves pass them the current moves them down the shoreline. They call this “horizontal drift.” In a sense that is where i am right now. Its like being in limbo and waiting for your fate but without the negative connotation. Patience is called for because you don’t want the next wave, you want the right wave. One that will carry you all the way in.
I do have choices. I am good at a lot of things. The right opportunity will present itself and I will recognize it, as long as I am watching. Then comes the time to paddle like hell to stay in front of it until you are carried along on it’s down slope which is continually generated behind you as you go. Interesting parallels to my situation. I got another lead today from the same recruiter and this one is in Denver, and it’s not a dealer. This could be it. But it may still be just an interim measure.
I am working on something in Crestone and with the sale of my house I may invest in a business. It won’t be shining shoes but I have some ideas. I have been doing some consulting work, which sounds fancier than it is. I’m just kind of doing little things for lots of people instead of lots of things for one company.
As far as the job search itself is concerned I did get a hit from my re-tooled resume and had a good phone interview from a cafe in Crestone. I mentioned two guys who I know that are working for this manufacturer and neither one of them could find it in their hearts to give me a nod. One said he wouldn’t hire me and the other couldn’t even say yes or no. Neither of these guys had any reason not to recommend me. One took over part of my responsibilities at a former blood sucking employer and left in less than a year. The other I just know in a surface way but he has pretended to be my friend and knows my last employer for decades. I don’t know who said what but it really doesn’t matter.
The guy who interviewed me is brand new with the company, which is a manufacturer. With regard to these two men, I think I’d rather be me than him. He has these two working for him. I now know that I can’t trust them and will never deal with either of them again. Be careful as to who you ask for help and who’s name you drop in this process. I would have been better off on my own. Its better to struggle to climb back up on your own when your hanging from the edge than to use one of you hands to reach out for something that’s not there.